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addiction

it's hard to admit you have an addition. one may be in denial. my addiction is alcohol. yes, i am an alcoholic. i don't wanna tell people anymore that i quit drinking because i didn't. it's not easy to quit. i've tried numerous times. i first experienced it when i was 5. the first time i was drunk was 14. since then i've been an alcoholic; whether it be at school, home, or at a friends house. i need to get my shit together. i'm messed up in the head right now (as i'm typing this blog). i do crazy shit when i'm like this. i don't think.. i KNOW a lot of this has to do because of my experience in iraq. i remember not so long ago i walked around the neighborhood at like 5am with a loaded gun tucked in my wasit just waiting for something to happen. crazy stuff. alcohol helps me forget what i did out there but at random times it reminds me of the evil things i've done. maybe i didn't drink the right stuff? maybe i drank too much? i don't know. i just need some shit to help me forget without making me resort to alcohol all the time.



sincerely,

wutever.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

my new years resolution: Be a Nice Guy



this is pretty much how was tonite


DO THE FIST PUMP!

Jesus' Birthday

Christmas was cool. hella food. Hung out with family. Didn't get that many gifts but that was expected since i'm one of the oldests. Shelby and Kai got the most.

i got this for christmas lol

morning

maureen's cool. like the girl next door. well maybe just a few more houses away but close enough. she makes me wanna be a good boy.

it's 6am. i'm gonna eat breakfast now. some oatmeal and fruit. then maybe work out if the roommates aren't sleeping.

tell it how it is

uhhh..

so i was wondering around david's room and this is wut i found...







lol. it wasn't really in david's room. i stumbled upon the pic online and started laughin my ass off